2020:Had It All

It is without a doubt that this year is the worst one we ever had so far! I mean, at least for most of us, especially for me. A total nightmare I definitely would not want to dream of! Legit! This year had enough!

5th of January 2020, I arrived back in the Philippines from my 6-month contract onboard MSC Magnifica. It was my first time to request a shorter contract since I do not want to be part of the World Cruise 2020 of the said ship. It would take me to stay on board for 3 months more if I stayed. My reasons were, I only had a month of vacation prior to joining that ship, then I already experienced a world cruise before, and lastly, I thought that it was the universe's decision.

Aside from this, I also requested a 4-month vacation and I have no idea why I did it. Again, it was all my gut feel. I only realized all these when something so bad happened later on.

Today, April 25, 2021, has been four months since I have started writing this blog and stopped at the previous paragraph because I ran out of something to say. And now, I am back while I was in the middle of watching a Netflix series I have been ignoring for a while to watch until I gave it a try today. The pilot episode already got me teary-eyed and it is no surprise because the story reminded me of my experience at the hospital with my mom as she was battling diabetes mellitus. I was reminded of the everyday scenario I have witnessed where patients are either dying and recovering from one sickbed to the other. I would just suddenly awaken from a shout or cry from the family members of the patient who is being retrieved by the medical staff.

Aside from that, it reminded me of my regret of not pursuing my first-course choice back in college. My mom used to say that, no one from her children followed her foot's step to be in the medical profession. Maybe, had I pursued it, things would have been different today. Maybe with the basic knowledge that I would get, she would still be alive today.

Coincidence or not but, last night I had a dream about my mom, though I cannot recall what was it all about. Yet, one thing I am certain of, I so missed her and it felt good to see her in my dreams.

See you next time..